Guys, I am in a rut. I feel like I’m having my quarter life crisis, and I am over it.
I’m constantly going between being so happy to being so sad. My stomach cramps (I have lots of uterus and stomach problems, PCOS and possibly endometriosis. I’m having lots of testing to figure it all out) have been so bad lately, my moods are all over the place. I’m either starving or have no appetite.
I’ll be so productive and work hard on this blog, my social media or courses with Travel Blog Success, and then afterwards, after feeling so successful, I’ll look at my bank account and feel like a poor loser going nowhere in life.
Sorry about this whiny post, but I know I’m not the only one who feels this way so I thought I would share so maybe someone else can know that they aren’t alone either.
It is so frustrating to want to read, so I’ll cozy up with a book, but then I’m unable to concentrate on the words because of pain in my uterus.
It’s nice being at home and being able to work so hard on everything, but not being able to work right now is really stressful with student loans and bills.
I feel like now that I’m 25 I should be working hard to save money for things later in life, but I’m not able to do that right now and it sort of makes me feel like a failure.
I know that I’m not a failure though, because health and illness is just out of my control right now until the doctors can help me pinpoint everything and get a solid diagnosis as opposed to just their speculation, but sometimes we can’t help what we feel.
I guess what I’m trying to say with this post is, I am in a rut. Other people are also in ruts and sometimes there is nothing we can do about it.
All we can try to do is find things that make us happy, make us feel successful, and work to get out of the rut.
Living in Vancouver and witnessing first hand how many people are homeless, and have nothing to eat, nothing to feed their dogs (lots of homeless dogs here as well) I literally have nothing to complain about. I have a roof over my head and food to eat. I do wish I had more money to eat better, but at least I’m never hungry. So it’s time to get over my rut.
Lately I have been watching lots of horror movies and Disney movies as both genres make me happy.
Now that it is autumn I will no longer be sweltering hot, so maybe I can be more active inside and out.
The cooler temperatures make me SO happy, and I cannot wait to hear leaves crunching under my feet.
Now that it’s cooler I can drink copious amounts of tea at night again.
I can light a candle and let it burn for hours beside me.
I can listen to rain when it rains. There was hardly any rain this summer, and when there was, my fans (yes plural) were going so I couldn’t hear it. But now I can.
I can make big pots of chili and soup, my ultimate comfort foods.
I can watch Halloween movies! Specifically Hocus Pocus and the Halloweentown series 😀
So I may be in a bit of a rut right now, but I have a lot to look forward to. And look forward to them I will.
How do you get out of a rut? Are you happy that summer is over?
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