It has to be better

Have you ever had one of those days where all you can think is “it has to be better than this?”

I’m sure you have. We all have I believe, and if you say you haven’t than your life is clearly amazing and please share some with the rest of us?

I know my life is pretty awesome, and I’m kind of wondering why I’m even typing this post up, but it is just one of those thoughts that I had to share.

I’m curled up in bed, having terrible stomach cramps, and all I can think about is guacamole.

I don’t even have any avocado’s by the way. So I’m SOL on the guac front.

I also want to go grab a hot water bottle, but I can’t be arsed to get up at the moment.

I guess I’m just so over doctors appointments and stomach cramps, and like, will I ever be able to have children? Because I want five…

I just wish all of my lady parts could just work properly how they’re supposed to.

They never have though, I have never had a normal period like all of my friends growing up.

Now the doctor’s are thinking I have endometriosis, but that’s just a theory. Who even knows really, other than we do know that I do have PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome).

So I have a referral to a specialist, so hopefully we can get things rolling along.

It’s baby season right now, so there are a ton of pregnant women who will come first for the specialist of course. I don’t have an appointment set up yet, but I do have the referral so I can expect a phone call soon!

I hate to sound whiny, but I just hate not being able to give my full effort at work because I’m having cramps and feel sick, or having everyone worry over me. Or me worrying over myself.

My life is pretty great in all other aspects, so the fact that I really only have this one issue is a good sign I think.

I just wish it could all just be better NOW.

Sorry for the whine fest, this is just what’s on my mind right now so I decided to share.

Also a lot of people have asked about my stomach issues so I thought doing this post might clear things up a bit.

Or maybe just confuse you all more…

Haha sorry.