Today has been a really bad day for my mental health. (I’m writing this on Saturday). It’s just one of those days where no matter what I do, I am stressed to the max. I’ve been having terrible stomach cramps, which is the reason that I’m off work currently, and I cannot help feeling sorry myself.
My anxiety and depression have been really bad, and medication hasn’t made a difference. I’m usually pretty calm and collected about everything. I don’t allow myself to wallow or feel bad, but today I just can’t help it.
I’ve been watching the Gilmore Girls revival, which has helped some, but in other ways made things worse.
Finally I decided to clean my desk drawer. I cleaned the apartment and have nothing else to clean, so even though I cleaned the drawer the other day I decided to do it again.
While cleaning the drawer I saw my adult coloring book and decided that coloring couldn’t hurt. The whole reason it was given to me was to help with days like today.
I started coloring and nearly cried because I suck at coloring in the lines.
I texted Scott and told him how shit I am because I can’t even color in the lines, and shouldn’t I have learned that in kindergarten? He told me I’m fine at coloring and to get over it. It helped me stop feeling shit and I continued coloring.
There is something about coloring that is so relaxing. What even is it? I’m not talented at it, but still find it so helpful, even when I see the mistakes and all the little parts that need to be colored in.
I love choosing which colors will go where, and making choices that most wouldn’t make.
I didn’t color for long, but it was long enough to help me relieve some of the stress. I’m still not feeling great, but hey, a little bit better is better than not at all, right?
Thank goodness for the magic of the adult coloring book.
Do you find coloring a stress reliever?
What do you do for bad mental health days?